My latest writing project is titled Notes from a Vegan Hypocrite.
I want to share in hopes that my vulnerability will encourage others to examine their role as consumers in this world and to be forces of peaceful change, one dollar and one bite at a time.
I've eaten the flesh and drank the milk of enslaved, murdered and raped men and women of other species...and now I have to live with and heal (heal myself and do what I can to help other beings and humans heal) from my greed, confusion, and addictive tendencies. Although I choose to be vegan now, and have gone in and out of it over the last 6 years, most of my 37 years of life I did not choose to be vegan. I am the problem. I am also the solution.
And I will have to pay my karmic debts too. Nothing is free. I can never take back the harms I've caused to innocent beings and I can never neutralize my violent choices. I am a criminal in my personal prison who has to live with what I have done. And moving forward, I will practice forgiveness and I will make the most nonviolent choices I can as a conscientious consumer and global citizen. I am a believer in restorative justice, therefore, one day at time, I humble myself and work to be the change I wish to see in the world. My job is to change myself.
Consequently, I would rather be a hypocrite in public perpetuating the critical mass of change than a silent, complacent cog in the perpetual wheel of suffering and misery.