Thursday, July 20, 2017

Fasting, ketosis, and longevity...experimenting on myself

Good article/blog and there's plenty of tedious scholarly articles to further explain if you want to go there, which I encourage and do myself. 


AND building on the article, when one fasts (dry fasting (DF) is even quicker: 1 day of DF'ing is like about 2-3 days of water fasting and other than being thirsty, DF'ing is easier) the body's autophagy process/activating ketosis and vise versa works even better/cleans the system quicker because it's self-eating the stored junk proteins as well as ketones from stored fat, rather than the proteins from food eaten. And the body hydrates itself with metabolic water which is stored in fat, so as the body hydrates itself it also then burns that fat up! AND plenty of junk gets stored in the fat, as well as those junk proteins, so the cleaning really amps up! AND the excess fat can cause insulin resistance, which can cause diabetes, hypertension, and cardiovascular issues, which can all affect hormone imbalances and cause other illnesses, as well as premature aging, so another reason why manipulated autophagy is great.

Gotta get used to the hunger and thirst, but as one builds tolerance, it's not so bad. Mind over matter. The brain is used to eating all of the time, but once the body goes into survival mode, some of that shuts down, and the body really isn't that hungry and can live on fat stores/junk proteins as this article discusses.  Ketones are appetite suppressants.  The body is amazing!!!

This is why I fast and when I eat, I eat keto. Major game changer--and I use to be a raw/vegan fruitarian and I'm glad I gave that up, as it wasn't working for me. There's a reason, many reasons in fact, why people and animals fast to heal. And when eating a ketogenic diet, one switches from one level of ketosis to even deeper, and therapeutic, level of ketosis when one fasts. (Fasting just means giving stuff up but not necessarily everything all at once. One can fast from sugar, alcohol, wheat, face book, TV, etc.) As far as fasting goes, all cultures do it.  Humans have been fasting for thousands of years, for forever, and clearly with very good reason which the body is so intelligently designed to do.

Beyond all of this, the self-mastery and peaked energy levels are so rewarding in and of themselves. 

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Longevity...c'est moi joie de vivre

http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/acel.12338/full

autophagy
https://greatist.com/live/autophagy-fasting-exercise

mTOR
https://selfhacked.com/blog/mtor-natural-mtor-inhibitors/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3331679/

AMP activator
https://selfhacked.com/blog/natural-ampk-activators/

longevity herbs
interstellar




side note: "putting out fire with gasoline...'' --David Bowie

line from Cat People...love the paradox, concept, and image here...even if it comes from a time in his career which he is least proud of.  I love all of his work! Was thinking about Iman today while listening to Bowie.  I assume she must feel absolutely destroyed living without him...  Can you imagine!!!  I wonder how she copes?  Does she listen to his music on repeat like the rest of us?  She must.  But that would soothe her and help her feel close to him, and rip her open all at the same time....gawd!  Sigh...love and prayers for Iman...her heart must be shattered into a million pieces.


Interstellar

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQHto60cDFA

Getting closer and closer to how I want my life to look.  I'm not there yet, but I'm making good progress.  Will keep forging ahead and working smart and hard.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

...and the living is easy

Finally getting around to reading Oscar Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray. I love summer reading that requires no highlighting and note taking. With the pressures of grades and deadlines off, it's so easy to absorb the details and then let them go without a care in the world. Seems fitting to follow it up with D.H. Lawrence and other delicious fiction which does nothing for my career. And how's about a nap in the gravity chair on the porch? All the while, Maggie is chasing rabbits in her sleep right next to me and busy bees swarm invasive, cascading trumpet flowers taking over the yard! Let the summer months pass slowly...I'm in no hurry to get back to business as usual.

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Sonic the Barrel Racer!!!!


Me and Sonic--this past winter



I got to work with Sonic today.  Sonic use to be a barrel racer back before he became a therapist.

I really love Sonic AND he can be super stubborn, pushy, noncompliant, and lazy when it comes to ground work.  Other than that, he's a sweetie!  I love him!  I see those less desirable behavioral qualities as opportunities for me to practice better, more assertive and clear directions.  I improved a lot since last week from working with Cisco.  And I have worked with Sonic before so I knew I had to step up my game in the leadership department in order to get him to move.

We did well but we did have to get his attention a couple times, being a little more assertive than I usually am.  Every week, I get challenged in this area.  Sometimes the horses think they don't have to listen to the volunteers because many of the volunteers have little experience with horses, so they get away with bossing the volunteers and learning bad habits.  So, they don't get to boss me but they do try! Haha!  Then they figure out that I'm not a pushover and after testing me and trying to walk all over me for a while, they start to obey me and then we begin to connect and have fun.  I never lose my patience with them either.  We just practice until we get it right.

Ashley is teaching me a lot about being assertive with the horses.  She's very kind and gentle with both horses and humans, but she is firm and gets what she wants from them and all of us...so she's showing me how to do that.  I really like that about her.  No question who the boss is!  She has taught me to use the whip in different, non-aggressive ways.  For example, I'll have difficulty getting Sonic to walk-on and Ashley steps in and shows me what to do and Sonic is a totally different horse.  I make a little popping noise with the whip in the air or whip the ground in front of him to stop him or make him back up to where he's beside me and not in front of me, if need be.

We never touch the horses in mean ways and the concept of natural horsemanship is that we will eventually not have to use the whip or even a halter at all once they learn to follow the leader as they're meant to.  Those stronger gestures and sounds with the whip simply spark their attention and encourage them to listen and follow directions.  They're the same as me making my voice louder, which doesn't work with horse.  My voice is louder and they hear me through clear and assertive body language.  It really makes a difference.  Quite remarkable!  Then they know that while we are absolutely a team working together, I am still the leader and I will lead them to safety at all times. They have to learn to let go, follow me, and learn to trust me.  It's a lot of work.

So, after ground work, I got to ride Sonic.  We worked on making his transitions between halting, walking and trotting more smooth.  His movements are pretty abrupt, so we want him to be more fluid so that when it comes to working with people with special needs, perhaps with balancing issues, he will be a safer ride and will follow directions immediately.

It was so much fun to ride him and trot around in the corral.  Sonic likes to pick up and go and that was a blast!  Some of the horses are slow and sluggish, but he just needs a little squeeze and he's ready to go.  I can't wait til I get to work up to cantering.  I love to go fast!  Riding felt so natural.  I wasn't scared or nervous at all and held decent form!

In general he listened to me pretty well and even though he wants to go fast, he does have good breaks.  When we're working on ground work and agility and he has to follow me around, stop, go, slow down, speed up, back up, turn in circles, etc, according to my body movements, he gets annoyed and bored and pretends that he's going to bite me, but he was much more content to have me ride him and pick up the speed!  You can take the horse out of the race but you can't take the racer out of the horse!  That was awesome! Hope I can take Sonic on a trail ride one of these days!  After our ride, I gave him cookies, hosed him down, and squeegeed him off!  Sonic loves this part of the day!

Tomorrow and next week I'll volunteer with some of the individual clients.  I'm looking forward to that, as I haven't had time to work with any of them since school let out.  Today, the sweetest young man who has different abilities categorized somewhere on the autism spectrum had his lesson before we exercised all the horses.  What an awesome rider!  He's 23 and began riding lessons in 2011, so he is super comfortable and very skilled.  He's small like a jockey too and his posting was great.  I really enjoyed watching him ride and his smile spanned from ear to ear!!!  After his lesson, he was so excited and he just walked around hugging, patting, and high-fiving everyone...over and over...and rubbing his mom's head and hugging her and smiling and soaking in all the compliments!!!  What an awesome guy!!!

Seeing the riders with the horses is such a joy!  It's so healing and empowering...equine therapy is magical!  Folks get to connect with these incredible creatures and feel confident and proud of themselves!!! We work with kids from the youth shelter too and they blossom so much from working with the horses.  Wednesdays they are on barn duty and Fridays they get to ride! And I'm transporting two young women who are human trafficking victims from their safe-house to the barn and they are our new interns, which is so cool for them.  The horses provide safe (usually) healing space for us all!!!  We have a wonderful community.  SOOOOOOO awesome!

I just love this work!!!



  

Monday, July 3, 2017

Our Nature (by moi)



join the discourse, love's dialogue never ends
bring all of the voices in your head, of course...
dance with the surprises and build tolerance for the explosions
swim in the continuum of reality's fluid, lucid, edge
remain forever 'til suffering ends
keep coming back, return to your breath over and over and over
bring every aspect, every reflection, of yourSelf...
your wholeness is wanted here, it's okay to cry here
we can allow our roots to intertwine, we can reside in this cave, but will always live in the world
we are safe, even amidst all the suffering, our Multiverse is safe
bring your valiance and be brave, sweet soul, my gentle lion-heart
blossom tenderly, open, yield, flex and receive
feel it all, see it all, meet it all
and when you ache for mercy, when you think you might die from feeling...
unbind, stretch, and expand and watch all of the fear and brokenness fall away, like the shedding of old skin
the illusion of control is as real as we make it, for the love, let it go...
let go of the illusion of control for you, for me, for we
and when your tender heart has shattered into a million ecstatic pieces, remember that you are more than the sum of all of your parts
and when you think feeling, seeing, meeting all the pain and need in the world will kill you...smile, Beloved Friend
you are not alone
I will remain with you forever
I love you keep going
I love you keep going
I love you keep going
I love you keep going
I love you keep going
I love you keep going
I love you keep going
join the discourse, love's dialogue never ends
bring all of the voices in your head, of course...
dance with the surprises and build tolerance for the explosions
swim in the continuum of reality's fluid, lucid, edge
remain forever 'til suffering ends
keep coming back, return to your breath over and over and over
bring every aspect, every reflection, of yourSelf...
your wholeness is wanted here, it's okay to cry here
we can allow our roots to intertwine, we can reside in this cave, but will always live in the world
we are safe, even amidst all the suffering, our Multiverse is safe
bring your valiance and be brave, sweet soul, my gentle lion-heart
blossom tenderly, open, yield, flex and receive
feel it all, see it all, meet it all
and when your tender heart has shattered into a million ecstatic pieces, remember that you are more than the sum of all of your parts
and when you ache for mercy, when you think you might die from feeling...
unbind, stretch, and expand and watch all of the fear and brokenness fall away, like the shedding of old skin
the illusion of control is as real as we make it, for the love, let it go...
let go of the illusion of control for you, for me, for we
and when you think feeling, seeing, meeting all the pain and need in the world will kill you...smile, Beloved Friend
you are not alone

I will remain with you forever


Thursday, June 29, 2017

Cisco Kid Was a Friend of Mine

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9f06QZCVUHg

I knew this summer would be fabulous and it is so far!  Volunteering at NMCTR is one of my favorite things to do.  I go every Thursday from 9-12'ish to exercise the horses.  I love it!!!! The director, Ashley, is wonderful and decided to add three days each week dedicated to horse physical and mental health and the horses have just blossomed in a few weeks!!! One horse, Kodi, follows the leader perfectly without a halter now! Amazing to see and he was a wild mustang before who had been abducted from his mom in the wild and then abused be the owners.  Now he is so safe and happy and stimulated!

I worked with Cisco today and am a believer in the natural horsemanship strategies more than ever! We started implementing them about a month ago.  As a result, the horses are growing and learning so much and are appropriately stimulated.  They had become very stoic and tired.  I'm learning and growing leaps and bounds too and feel a new excitement as well!!!

So, I use to be pretty intimidated, afraid even at times, of Cisco because he was getting really grouchy and pissed off.  His body language was unhappy and he would snip and bite and lay his ears down and get really mad at us.  He was not into it at all anymore.  Ashley put him on a long break and he is doing so much better now.  I guess he was just tired.  These healing horses put up with a lot and give a lot too.  They get compassion fatigue just like other social workers.

Today is a new day though!  Cisco is fresh and rested, has a great attitude, and is ready to get back to work.  He's still a bit pushy though.  Ashley taught me a lot about how to handle him.  Learning how to work with them is very humbling and is teaching me a lot about myself and about ways I need to work on how I communicate and present myself.  It's amazing how much I'm learning about subtle forms of communication, being really clear about what I want the horse to do and leading them to do it, boundaries, and leading them so they know they can trust me and that I will lead them to safety at all times.

Wow...that's a lot of letting go and trusting I am asking of him!  It's a huge responsibility!  We made great progress today.  We never use to use whips before, and we never whip them per se or harm them in anyway, but we use it as a tool to help the horses learn to follow us as the heard leaders and to stop and go using very light taps and gestures so they can learn boundaries.  Ultimately, they are much happier once these structures are set up because we are able to work as a team and really connect.

Oh, when the connection happens between me and the horse, today with Cisco, it's the best feeling ever! He loved it too!  He really came to trust me and gave me soft nosey snuggles, licked his lips, and softened his gaze when we took breaks and when I praised him and thanked him.  They love to be talked to and respected.  It just inspires me so much how these horses want to connect and serve.  But they need to be seen and heard just like anyone else or they get pissed off just like anyone else.  Our natural horsemanship strategies help us communicate with, and listen to the voices/communication styles of the horse on their level, and it works amazingly well, not surprisingly.  Cisco was sooooo happy today!

I got a wake up call about how vague I can be with my communication.  I noticed a couple times when Cisco didn't do what I thought I wanted him to do because I wasn't even entirely clear in my own head and then didn't ask him in the right way.  How many times have I done that in my life in different relationships and situations!  I can think of so many times with different folks where we're just floundering around, they don't know what to do, I don't know what to do...do we stop, go, slow down, speed up...just a cluster-fuck of confusion.  I also am learning to be more assertive and to be a leader.  I know I'm capable of being a good leader and it takes practice.  The horses need that from me and so do the riders who go there for therapy.  They need me to be in charge in a firm and loving way.  They need me to practice good, strong boundaries so that they can feel cared for and safe.  Same goes with future clients once I'm finally a licensed therapist.  This point was really clarified for me today.  Very grateful for that!

Clearly my issues with boundaries, communication, and being assertive stem from my formative years and family with abuse, really unhealthy and non-existant boundaries, and terrible communication, but today I get to nip that and practice new tools, skills, and behavior.  Those days are over and I'm the leader now.  I also can relate to the defiance of the horses, if it can be called such, as I was that teen and young adult who was going to do whatever I wanted.  I know I learned such tendencies because I had trust issues, felt alone and like I had to lead myself, yet had no clue what to do.  Wow...I feel so much compassion for me, the horses, and the youth who come to work with the horses.  Negotiating these complexities and challenges take more skill than most of us are taught.  Feels awesome to put one foot in front of the other as I forge into my new paradigm!  Working with the horses is teaching me how to be a better human.

I just love the horses soooooo much and love the person I'm becoming from this opportunity to spend so much time working with them.  I'm not even scared of cleaning their hooves or walking behind them anymore.  Every week I feel more and more comfortable and then they let me in more as a result.  I even rode for the first time last week.  I haven't been on a horse since I was a teen. Very empowering and Maggie tested me like crazy!  :) I get to ride next Thursday too!!! Yay!!!